allright,tobehonest,whatuaskaboutisbeyondmyimagination.maybeitisamiracleformetomeetu.thankgoodness.wehavenochoicetochangethesituationevenifweknowitisnotthebestchoiceforbothofus.Allthatisrealisrational,justaccept,whichmaymakeusfeelalittlecomfortable.uhavemanyfriendswhoucanrelyonwhenuatloss,whohavethesamefavorasu,notlikeme,alonelychild,burymyselfintomathematics,thinkingaboutallkindsofproblem,leftmelittletimetothinkaboutotherthings,astupidmeasured,isn'tit?maybeidonothaveenoughcouragetofacethem.Goahead,lifewillguideus,nomatterhowgorgeousthepastis,wecannotgoback,cannothaveasecondchoice.uknowmuchaboutmyself,knowwhatIlike,knowwhatIdislike,knowmystrangehabit,however,Iknowlittleaboutu,andalwaysmakeufeelunhappy,donotknowwhatureallyneed,maybeMrwhiteisgoodatthis,justaswhatutoldmeinthatdaywhenulosturwallet.Sinceuhavemadeurdecision,itisnotpropertothinkaboutwhatif,buttocherishwhatuhavenow.maybeIhaveadvantageoverhiminsomeaspect,however,heisbetterthanmeintakingcareofu.thereisnorightorwronginthisaffairs,butwillingorunwilling,lifeissimple,itisourselveswhomadeitsocomplex,allthestandardaboutourlifeissatbynooneelsebutourselves.IthinkwhatIreallyneedisapeacelife,becomeateacherormaybeaprofessor,forIlostthechancetobecomeadoctor,ifIhavetochoicethethingIregretmost,maybelosingthechancetobecomeadoctorrankingfirst.HighschooltimeisthehappiesttimeIhaveeverwentthough,thankuforuraccompany.Idon’tknowwhatureallythinkabout,butMr.whiteisagoodpersoninmyeyes,andiwilltryourbesttohelpu,justlikewhatIhavedonebefore.Idon’tknowwhetherornotthereexistawordwhichdefinearelationshipbetweenordinaryfriendsandlovers,iftherehaveone,Iwilluseittodescribewhatweare.IfIdonotmeetchenatthattime,maybewewillnotlikethis,forgetthissentencewhenuhavereadit,itmakesnosenseatallforusnow.IamgladthatuchoiceMr.white..areliablechild.Maybeuthinkmetoohighinurmind,maybeIhaveneverreachurstandard.Uhavemadeurdecision,soitisuselesstojudgewhetherornotitprovestoberightaswellasthinkaboutanotherchancetochoiceagain,keepitandgoonthelifemaybethebestsolutiontothisquestion,asforothers,Iwillkeepmypromise.Urmysister,maybetheonlysisterinfewyearslater.Therearesomanyunwillinginthisworld,butwhatweneedistoadaptthem.Ces'tLaVie,ourideallifemaybeonlyexistinanotherworld,aparallelworld.