【Eachofusstrugglesforself-respectandself-worthtosomedegree．Ispentmuchtimetryingtoachieveperfectionineveryaspectofmylife．Iwasahappykidwithalotoffriendsandasupportivefamily．Butgrowingupwasreally（36）___】
Each of us struggles for self-respect and self-worth to some degree．I spent much time trying to achieve perfection in every aspect of my life．
I was a happy kid with a lot of friends and a supportive family．But growing up was really（36）___ and even scary sometimes．
During my childhood，I was constantly involved in something that included people's viewing my achievements or my（37）___．I wanted everyone's praise and acceptance，but I was my own toughest critic （挑剔的人）．
After I graduated from high school，my（38）___ to be"thin"began to trouble me．I began trying to diet by（39）___ my food．
In the beginning，I felt great-attractive and successful，almost superhuman．I even thought that I was better than everyone else．What I didn't see was that I was slowly（40）___ myself．
People around me began to（41）___ my weight loss．They said with concern．"You're losing too much weight．""Elisa，you're so thin．"All their words only suggested that I was getting closer to"（42）___"．
Sadly，I took my physical（43）___ the first important in my life，（44）___ that it was the way to become successful and accepted．
Then I cut down my（45）___ more and more，until a（46）___ day consisted of half a teaspoon of nonfat yoghurt and coffee in the morning，and a cup of grapes at night．
But my poor（47）___ began to cause me to lose（48）___．Then one night，like many nights before，I couldn't sleep，and my heart felt as though it might beat out of my chest．I tried to（49）___，but I couldn't．The beating became so rapid and so strong that I could no longer（50）___．What I had done to diet nearly caused me to have a heart attack．I stood up，and immediately fell down．I was really（51）___，and I knew I needed help．My roommate rushed me to the（52）___，beginning the long road to my（53）___．It took a lot-doctors，nurses，nutritionists，food supplements…
And most important，a sense of what was true about myself got back on tra