ThereweresomanynightswhenI，asayoungboy，hadtowatchhelplesslyasmyfatherverballyandphysicallyabusedmymother．Icanstillrecallthesmellofalcohol，seethefearinmymother'seyes，andfeelthehopelessmiserythatcomesw

　　There were so many nights when I，as a young boy，had to watch helplessly as my father verbally and physically abused my mother．I can still recall the smell of alcohol，see the fear in my mother's eyes，and feel the hopeless misery that comes when we see people we love hurting each other in incomprehensible ways．

　　I would not wish that experience on anyone，especially not a child．If I settle down in those memories，I can feel myself wanting to hurt my father back，in the same ways he hurts my mother and in ways of which I was incapable as a small boy．I see my mother's face and I see this gentle human being whom I loved so very much and who did nothing to deserve the pain imposed upon her．

　　When I recall this story，I realize how difficult the process of forgiving truly is．Intellectually，I know my father caused pain because he was in pain．Spiritually，I know my faith tells me my father deserves to be forgiven as God forgive us all．But it is still difficult．The sufferings we have witnessed or experienced live on in our memories．Even years later they can cause us fresh pain each time we recall them．

　　Are you hurt and suffering？Is the injury new，or is it an old，unhealed wound？Know that what was done to you was wrong，unfair，and undeserved．You are right to be outraged．And it is perfectly normal to want to hurt back when you have been hurt．But hurting back rarely satisfies．We think it will，but it doesn't．If I slap you after you slap me，it does not lessen the sting I feel on my own face，nor does it weaken my sadness as to the fact you have struck me．Revenge gives，at best，only momentary relief from our emotional pain．The only way to experience healing and peace is to forgive．Until we can forgive，we remain locked in our pain and locked out of the possibility of experiencing healing and freedom； locked out of the possibility of being at peace．

　　Without forgiveness，we remain tied to the person who harmed us．We are bound with chains of bitterness，trap